well i have my two library books in front of me, ‘wordpress for dummies’ and ‘wordpress on demand’. i wonder why it feels so bamboozling? for some reason i read the pages but the information just doesn’t seem to go in. i cannot seem to connect. i might be a doer and not a reader. i might just have to dive in and make lots of mistakes to finally get it. i think i understand what a widget is. but then again maybe i don’t. i’ve added some ‘widgety’ looking things to my blog. it feels a little friendlier. i’ve managed to place my facebook friends smiling at me there.
what i really want to do right now is paint. because somehow painting fixes everything.
i’m practicing a new attitude. i’m allowing myself to be a beginner. i’m letting myself make mistakes. i can try to build this little site and i can even muck it up.
so just for today, i’ll continue to show up. i’ll commit to doing just a little bit more. i’ll try to focus on what is working. and then i’ll trust that the way will appear.
stepping out. connecting. trusting. letting go.