well i have my two library books in front of me, ‘wordpress for dummies’ and ‘wordpress on demand’. i wonder why it feels so bamboozling? for some reason i read the pages but the information just doesn’t seem to go in. i cannot seem to connect. i might be a doer and not a reader. i might just have to dive in and make lots of mistakes to finally get it. i think i understand what a widget is. but then again maybe i don’t. i’ve added some ‘widgety’ looking things to my blog. it feels a little friendlier.  i’ve managed to place my facebook friends smiling at me there.

what i really want to do right now is paint. because somehow painting fixes everything.

i’m practicing a new attitude. i’m allowing myself to be a beginner. i’m letting myself make mistakes. i can try to build this little site and i can even muck it up.

so just for today, i’ll continue to show up. i’ll commit to doing just a little bit more. i’ll try to focus on what is working. and then i’ll trust that the way will appear.

stepping out. connecting. trusting. letting go.

Acrylic on canvas, 40x40".
Acrylic on canvas, 40×40″.


If you hear a voice

“If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint,’ then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced.”
Vincent Van Gogh

Painted Jaybird, Acrylics on Canvas, November 2013.
Painted Jaybird, Acrylics on Canvas, November 2013.

This work was completed after finishing Flora Bowley’s magical e-course. For more information about Flora’s course, click on the link below.

to be honest

i don’t have a clue about what i’m doing. this page is like another world. or a foreign country. i do not speak this language. i see ‘add media’, ‘add poll’, ‘b-quote’, ‘ul’, ‘ol’, and stuff. i feel very uncomfortable. if i’m not careful i may begin to panic because apparently this is really important and it might kill me or something.

about 8 months ago, when i chrysalised into a possibilitarian and decided that maybe i could start this artful journey, i borrowed a book at the library called ‘wordpress for dummies’, and i’m sure i need to borrow it again. right about now. there’s a help button, somewhere. if i hit the enter button, the whole sentence disappears. and a blank line remains.

i just hit enter and it worked. sometimes enter works for me and sometimes it doesn’t. just like life.

so, i’m being honest. i don’t know what i’m doing. and that’s a very familiar feeling. i don’t know what i’m doing, but i’m doing it anyway. some call it stupid. some call it brave. i’m calling it ART.

The Encourager, acrylics on canvas, completed January 2014.
The Encourager, acrylics on canvas, completed January 2014.